I want you to be Happy.
& I want to let go of all the things
and all the people that bring me down,
make me sad, or hurt me.
I know I can do this because it's my life.
& it's the only one i've got.
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Female,
23 FL 
With a simple smile Butterflies flutter, But can't be seen. With a simple touch Eyes light up, more radiant then the sun. With a simple kiss The body shivers, sometimes starting a spark. |
8.5.2008
I want you to be Happy.
& I want to let go of all the things
and all the people that bring me down,
make me sad, or hurt me.
I know I can do this because it's my life.
& it's the only one i've got.
6.14.2008
You must think you’re cool the way you've played for a fool
Stringing me along for the ride
while you figure out what it is you want
but listen closely baby,
Cause I’m only gonna say this once
my babysitting days are over
this game has come to an end
I won't be there to watch your eyes open wide
it's gonna hit you like punch to the gut
but I won't be there when you lose your breath
I won't go down any further
'cause I finally see what you've become
and I don't want any part of it
I finally see I don’t' want any part of you
Tired of making excuses for you
giving you the benefit of the doubt
What a waste
of my precious time
What a waste
holding on to something long been gone
tired of your guessing games
too old to play along anymore
I finally see what I really want
and it isn't you baby
I won't be there to watch your eyes open wide
it's gonna hit you like punch to the gut
but I won't be there when you lose your breath
I won’t' be there the day you realize
the best thing you ever had
isn't ever coming back
and believe it's more than okay
so play your little games
it just won't be on me
'cause my baby sitting days are over
this game is over now
5.21.2008
didn't have the fairy tale ending all planned out
despite what you might think
I always liked the thought that it was just me
cause' I could count on that
but you swept me off my feet
and I know you never promised perfect days or nights
but I let myself fall deep
the fairy tale overshadowed my doubt
well, for a little while anyway
I believed in you and me
in happily ever after
so believe me when I say that I
I never thought this far ahead
never thought I'd be swept away
and now I know it will be alright in the end
so if it's not alright today and not alright tonight
then I know, it's not the end for you and me
despite what you might think
I really never thought this far ahead
2.18.2008
Wondering how it got this far
How I lost my way, lost myself
So what do you do when you lose it all?
When the pieces so small they can’t be seen
So what do you when it’s hard to breathe?
The air is so tight
gasping for just one breath won't help
Like the thorns on the roses he gave me
Prick me I won’t bleed anymore
Feel the pulse running through my veins
The fire inside is rising
can you see it?
Higher than these wings could ever soar
Prick me I won’t bleed
No no I wont’ bleed anymore
Thought I was I lost but it set me free
I can fly once again
No longer a memory to hold
Only a smile I can’t control it
Unpredictable
Indescribable it set me free
So what do you do when you lose it all?
you set it free you've got blank canvas to start from
so pick a color and jump right in.
CHORUS 2x’s
Like the thorns on the roses he gave me
Prick me I won’t bleed anymore
11.25.2007
Let me tell you about a girl I used to know
she could light up a room at a moment’s grace
all eyes on her as she walked through the door
no fear in her eyes
no second guessing
But somewhere along
along the way
she slipped and fell
so deep it hurt
just to take a breath
she couldn't move
the light in her eyes
just turned down low
Well let me tell you that light
won't just fade out
it runs so deep
deep inside her veins
it'll flow on through
no matter what
let me tell you about the girl I’ve come to be
head strong growing up to fast at times
ambition sky high no looking down
taking leaps no worries I know I can fly
no wings don't make the angel though
4.11.2007
like lightning lit the sky
it all became clear
for the first time in years
had this revalation
on a moon lit night
thought I had figured it out
but some how I lost my way
seems like i've been running
running in circles
just to end up right back
back where I started at
I should've seen it coming
but I looked the other way
choose to block it out
or maybe I was blind
temporary insantiy
I lost my mind
I saw it flash in front of me
torn reality
I saw it flash in front of me
like lightning lit the sky
it all became clear
1.10.2007
I write because I can not speak
my thoughts flow in my head
but most times when I start to talk
it is just that; talk
and most times it makes no sense
not even to myself
I leave things out
important things
that should be said,
should be heard
so I write and I write
not for you
or anyone else
not to be understood
but to understand myself
I write to clear my head
and make sense of it all
I write because I can not speak
I write because it isn't the same
11.21.2006
spread high
in all their glory
dark angel
to lift the soul
the task at hand
seems impossible
but wrapping her wings
around you
the fear fades
and clarity sets in
like a bolt of lightning
with a flash to leave
a lasting impression
her blackened wings
adding to the mystery
but her pull is too intense
begin to fight
impossible not to surrender
as beautiful wings
cover your soul
10.22.2006
showers of petals
bleed dry
nothing but the moonlight
to blanket her fears
petals so soft in life
bright and vibrant reds
till harsh weathers set in
begin to wither and fade
one by one falling to their end
under a rose bush
were once dreams were made
and happiness laid
nothing but a whisper of what was and could have been
now showers of petals
bleeding dry
withered and faded at their end
under a rose bush
4.17.2006
My Angel got her wings today
she came to me here on earth
first as friend with no expectations of anything more
but she became far more than that...
she became my "seester" as she would say
Her love overflowed like the ocean never ending
with a smile radiating the light in her soul...
It could light up a room at a moments grace
How sad that I did not realize my Angel was so close
Keeping you always in my heart
I see the true blessing I was given
To have known a love so rare...
a friendship some search a lifetime for
so for this and so many amazing memories
I am eternally grateful
My Angel got her wings too soon at times I think,
but that is just selfishness on my part
I never wanted to let you go,
But I understand it was meant to be
I'll keep the memories of fun times and bright smiles
alive in my heart always.
Knowing that you are with me forever more
watching over me in heaven above
with the radiant smile I will never forget.
so with a broken heart I smile, because...
My Angel got her wings today
In loving memory of Lizette Fernandez
February 2,1983-April 13,2006
Liz,
May you find eternal peace and love.
I know that you are soaring in heaven now
lighting it up with your gorgeous smile
and radiant soul...I am so lucky to have had
you as a friend and to have shared
in so many things with you...
you left me with countless
great memories to cherish all my life
I'll remember you always...
carry you in my heart...
and miss you till we meet again
~Besitos always from your little seester~
11.23.2005
Born and raised
Latin music deep in my roots
I am a beautiful soul,
Brown eyes with much to say
Hair like my mother,
Attitude as fierce as my father
I am a singer
A voice to be heard
Given the gift of music
To share with the world
I am a sister, raised by brothers
I speak with love
I am not a writer, but poetry in my heart, it is my passion
I am not afraid, fear is in me, but I cannot surrender
I am a sinner, sin surrounds me, but it will not own me.
I am me, created by my past, for a future as bright as I choose
I was born to conflict
And I overcame.
7.26.2005
seem so big sometimes...
like a simple phone call to say hello
or an un expected visit...
not quite sure why so difficult
relationships not meant to give up yourself
but meant to compromise...
to make someone else happy
seems like a different page...
or chapter in a book
we might be on...at times
carefully the blank lines do say many things...
not obviously seen,
a watchful eye is needed...
time has passed...
but effort not always felt...
little things...that don't seem to mean so much
are the things I can't get enough of...
dropping by unexpected...flowers in hand
just because....a smile you'd recieve
putting up something...just because
you know it means alot to me
a call...for no reason at all...but to hear my voice
please and thank you...never forgotten...
opening a door...every now and then
a hand to hold...just because
things once done...so often
now but a faint memory...
once captured your prey
no need to try...
just because a smile you'd recieve
little things...
for no reason at all
but a smile in return
7.8.2003
The sighs of a nation in shock,
The cries for lives lost.
The sirens of rescue crews,
Working to save lives.
T.V. commercials speak only of war,
And of joining the fight.
Fear and confusion are all around,
The sign up sheets are everywhere,
Join the Army, join the Marines,
Help fight.
Some want peace,
But far to many are ready to fight.
I hear America singing;
The struggle of a nation divided,
With thoughts of peace and of justice.
9.9.2002
Beautiful beyond comparison
Easy to hurt
With the crush of a hand
Center,
Bright sun
Giving a smile
To all around
Mysterious yet beautiful
Same am I